Tomorrow at church i have the privilege to  share a spoken word piece that iIhave written that goes along with the pastor's message. I am really excited, but nervous at the same time. i hope my poem is powerful enough to impact at lease one person in the service. Wish me luck world :) 

Transform 

Preform 

A transplant 

My last chance

See I feel as though its time 

Lord I'm willing to mime 

No more on my own time 

I hear the bells. I hear the chimes.

I hear you calling my name 

Your voice, the same 

But this time my answer has changed 

See my answer is .. Change. 

I have this mentality 

That keeps on bounding me 

Its holding me back

And getting me off track 

Its patience I lack.

I know you will do it, but when?

And do you need my help?

Should I jump in ?

I've got a bended spine 

I need a new mind 

A ruber neck

Get me in check

Check out 

My broken heart

Just tell me where to start 

Lost I am 

I need a plan 

I've been looking 

And looking

And searching 

For some thing for anything 

But kept on passing by 

The only thing

Your word 

The perfect blueprint 

If I follow it , my condition. Mint. 

I let these people tint 

My perception of you 

Filling my mind with doubt 

And looking first to everyone but you 

See lord what I'm begging of you

Is that you would begin to renew 

Create a new heart in me 

One that's pure you see 

So that I can fulfill 

all that is destined of me

its kerri babyyyy

As a young woman its important that we choose good influences. The media can sometimes portray a negative image for black females as the people that we see the most make wrong 

things look so good and interesting. Today I watched a few videos on singer, song writer 

and

 producer 

Kerri Hillson. I believe that she is a good 

role model. 

She speaks so strongly on woman in a positive 

way. She recently released a song that I believe any girl can listen to and automatically feel great about themselves. 

"Pretty Girl Rock."

 With the confidence of a lion, hilson uses her creativity, and passion for music influencing \girls across the

 world.

The Acting Room

Today while looking for an article to read from the acting room, it took me a while to choose one that interested me, but when I did find this article on “using faith to guide your acting career” I knew it was the one. This article has also become my favorite things that I have read so far just because I could relate to it so well, and because I was filled with “ah-ha” moments.

Some of my “ah-ha moments include” the following:

“How can we, as people OF Faith, guide our own lives, THROUGH our Faith?”

I had to read the above quotation several times, that is how organic it was.

After trying to understand I for several minutes I actually came to the conclusion that if I as an actor who is also a Christian I shouldn’t think about how I can guide my life, but like everything else give all to God and trust that he will take care of it. Whether it is like in the article finding a Christian agent or finding a Christian role; I believe that once you put everything including your career into God’s hands everything happens for a reason.

My second “ah-ha moment”

“I believe that God makes people perfect in every way, it’s just our society and culture that makes us do bad things, and that’s usually because of desperation or lack of love.”

 I believe that the root of sin is in fact the lack of love. We look to other things that aren't always he best things  when we as Christians should be looking to God, for it is him that can provide all the love we ever need. Being in a industry such as acting, as actors and actresses we always are looking for some kind of reward or praise. We forget that God looks down on us happily every time we do something good, in this we look for approval in the wrong places such as the media, or ticket sales.  We must remember that God has given us his approval and that is why we have made it as a far as we have.

Post Reading Acting Professionally

I have learnt a lot from reading the book “Acting Professionally” by Robert Cohen.

One of the things that I have learnt and will stick with me forever is what it takes to become an actor.

Many thing are mentioned by Robert Cohen but I believe the number one thing is Commitment.

Having commitment and a massive will to succeed is the biggest thing. Within the entertainment business there are many who are going for exactly what it is you are going for. There will be times when you will be told that you do not have the talent required, and an up and coming actor might go years without a job or any recognition. There will be times when one may feel as though there is no hope left, and may even question if they have chosen the right career path, and that’s why the actors have to want it. Whether it is being a doctor or a lawyer or teacher, one can just go to school and gain the knowledge necessary and become better than those around you. On the other hand with acting the most important requirement is talent. Some are just born with it some have to take courses and classes to get it. I believe that a person who is willing to learn grow and wants it no matter what obstacle they come across will be the one to succeed whether they have raw talent or not. 

I have a lot from reading the book and If asked to rate the book “Acting Professionally” on a scale from 1-10 I would have to rate the book a 7. The book is filled with amazing information and very useful  tips; but the writing style used by author Robert Cohen Is very convoluted and can come across as being over written. 

T Time

Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I am a little obsessed with Teyana Taylor. Teyana Taylor is signed with Pharell. I first discovered her on one of my favorite Tv  shows “My super Sweet Sixteen.” in that one hour of viewing her sweet sixteen party I was completely compelled and intrigued by her style, grace and confidence. Ever since then I have been  a fan of her . I watch he YouTube videos, follow her blogs, follow her on Twitter, an watch her tutorials on Ustream. Teyana is beautiful and amazingly talented as she choreographs for some of thi biggest stars, styles some of the biggest stars, raps and sings. I really respect her because I feel as though for a female in the industry she is very positive compared to others. She is motivational and speaks highly on woman and how much they should respect them selves. Just by watching her videos I have been moved and inspired. She has helped me come to know my worth as a  young lady. And although I don't know her, she has changed my life.

-thanks TT

JOHN LEGEND

John legend. Amazing.

He speaks so highly of woman, unlike many other male R&b singers.

Its as if he knows just what to say and how to say it.

I didn't use to listen to him, I thought he was boring; but listening his entire album I see that hes a very clever artist.

his album "Evolver" is amazing! 

every song has such deep meaning and truth behind it 

one line he used that i love and stuck with me is from his song take me away. 

"take me away from here, take me somewhere where love is like breathing" 

Genius!   

confessional:

"you can keep that love that changes, you love me on Tuesday but then you tripping on Wednesday, you find another friend to love on Thursday, & when that friend don't wanna have nothing to do with ya you come to me on Friday" The ordinary just won't do I need a love that's pure & true, I can always find it in you Jesus."

Cant Stop, Wont Stop

Tears. I tried to hold them in, I was holding them in for the past few weeks but I can only fake it so much. Im nervous. Not scared because I know my savior Jesus Christ is there with me every step of the way. Im nervous because I feel the load, see the work load building and building. I know what I am capable of and I know the expectations that have been put on me but the minutes go by faster and the days seems shorter everyday, with less then two weeks less I can truly say the pressure is on. I will not give up, I will finish this round strong, and show them what a "wild card" really is.

My very first Kwanzaa

Last weekend my uncle held a celebration for kwanza at his home. It was my first time attending a Kwanza celebration and I really enjoyed it. We focussed on the topic of uniting as a culture and a community as black people and really remaining strong, and dominant in the world today. It was a very interesting night full of activities, entertainment and food. I chose to stand out qas I made the big decision to actually dress the part. I wore an African dress. My younger brother and cousins laughed at me and said my decision; but I didn’t care because I wanted the night to be as memorable as possible. Before attending the event I had no idea to what Kwanza was so I chose to do some research and learnt a lot of back ground information on Kwanza. With the knowledge I learnt I wrote a poem. The poem is something that I can keep with me forever, something that will remind me of my very first kwanza.

How important it is to know
What it is that allowed us to grow
Respect we must show
Some of them would throw
Their own lives away
To make a way for a day like today
A day in which we can reunite, remember the fight
Reevaluate our self determination
And take times to realize our realtions
With our family and friends
See it’s a time to mend
Our minds
To remember the times
A time to remember our purpose
Why we are here on the surface
Black
The people
Red
The struggles
Green
The Hope The future
Great privilege we should take
In the mistakes they make
The impact they have is enough to make the world shake
So many things have changed
Because they decided to change lanes
They refused to sit down and accept
Disrespect
Instead they fought, with no regrets
We must now
Take their places
And continue their fight
The fight for our rights
They fought with all their might
To allow our bonds to remain tight
We say thank you
We show gratitude
With great maltitude
Together we will take on the world
We will fly as one
And reach to the highest altitude.

Post Relationship Scenes

“God is Good.”

Now that the relationship scene is completed the above words are being used by me more and more. God is faithful, and it is only by his grace that me and my partner Sharisa had an amazing scene. I am so happy, and even more proud of myself and Sharisa. We buckled down in the last couple days before our personation and really came out strong. We went through a lot preparing for relationship scenes, we didn’t have our script completely written until the night before presentations, we had came up with multiple scenarios that just wouldn’t work. It was when we worked under pressure that everything got done. Working with my wonderful partner Sharisa was an amazing experience we were both able to relate to each other greatly, and I believe that because we are both believers and made God our main focus throughout the process it is what really helped us succeed in the end. We came out late when the presentations because we were praying. That felt good, to know my partner had the same morals as me, I was able to be at ease and feel very comfortable working with her. “Excellent” and “great Performance”is what my class mates said and it felt so good. I do believe that our scene was amazing. And all though we had some technical difficulties with sound and lighting our chemistry and amazing thought out scene surpassed all of those things. I am grateful for al that I have learned, through the process of writing, the process of acting and even after the fact. It was hard but we got through it and came out stronger then ever. My biggest fear was that the scene would be a “bust” but I truly believe that with faith and hard work there is no way any of my work for the remainder of this course will be anything less then excellent. All the Glory be to God.